Endless

I haven't been here in a while. Not big loss after all.

I'm going to Tampere tomorrow and friday I'm going to watch Emilie Autumn with my friend, Sini.
I'm really happy to meet her. it's been too long already. And I'm also happy that it's just the two of us.

Life is never easy. For me, it's been really hard lately, and without a reason, somehow.

I've started to write a fanfiction based on couple of OC's in Soul Calibur. It's going to take a while, but I'm still planing to finish and meaby even publish it. It start like this:

 

How long has it been? This cursed place is too much. There is no grass, nor trees. No sunlight or water. Not even wind blows down here. This has to end. Now.
It has been weeks. Months even. Lyna hide herself behind the nearest statue and began to wait. It was time. She smiled.
Lyna waited for hours. It was quiet. Too quiet. 

I'm writing in english which is really hard, since it's not my native language, but I'm trying.

And.. I don't know what else to write. Joy of joys.

See ya, Jenni

In word and deed

I've decided to write only in english for a while. 

Pain. Endless physical and emotional pain has been part of my life for so long. It gets better from time to time, but then it gets worse. I'm used to that. Hardly.

I've been wondering if I should start taking archery lessons. I'm not sure if there is any place in this town where you can learn archery, but I won't give up now. I have also been looking for cheap bows, but it seems there is no such thing. So now I have to  find 200€ for longbow.

 

Our friend is coming to visit us this weekend. We might go and watch Hunger Games, but I'm not sure of that.

Well, I can't figure what else to write this time, so this is it.

'til next time, Jenni

The world we know won't come back

Come on. At last I got time to start a blog. This idea came to be when my psychiatrist told me to record my thoughts. The long period of reflection before I decided to try if this method works. Interestingly enough, the blog topics and ideas for creating text, but in the writing stage, they will disappear. Sigh. Text to sound like in your head like wood.

My name is Jenni and I have anxiety disorder. So I suffer from panic / anxiety disorder, which seems to be some way difficult to my family to digest.

There. Now, it is distributed to the world.

Trivia about me:

1. I fundamentally strong. Even though I cry often, panic and anxiety, it does not prevent me to be a survivor.
2. Video games are the most favorite hobby, Dragon Age series are the closest to my heart.
3. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I have never had time to reflect before making critical decisions. For this reason, I'm training to become an occupation that does not interest me at all.
4. I have a boyfriend, with whom I have been dating for almost 4 years, and we have lived together for almost 3.

FYI, everybody who doesn't speak finnish, I'm really sorry about grammar errors my text in english might have. 

Hope to see you soon, Jenni